Didn't fall asleep til 5AM again. Woke up around 1:30PM with a migraine again. Gurr. Laid around for a few hours and chilled on the internet, then cleaned the house in an hour and a half. Took a nice long shower and prettified myself. Went out to dinner with my family to North Towne. I love Greek food. And I love Greek guys. Speaking of, I've been talking to Nick Ellyn the past few nights. Since about a week ago. We're getting to the point where it's pretty fun to talk now & such. That makes me happy because we used to have great conversations. He's willing to try to be friends with benefits. He wants a lot of the non-sexual cuddling, and I think that's a good idea. I need that to feel secure with my physical appearance sometimes, but he also wants to be able to talk and such. Sounds perfect to me. I need someone to turn to, and I need someone I can cuddle with and feel comfortable around. I think he might be it. I talked to Jordan about possibly getting back together, but I think I just want the relationship back and not necessarily him. That makes me feel like an asshole, but I'll still come to his band practice tomorrow to preview the upcoming show next week, and just see how things play out. I'm not really sure where I'm going or what I'm doing, but it's okay. Ben Kerley & I have gotten to be good friends, and I want to keep it that way. We'll need each other to vent on during the upcoming year of IB. I can help him, and he can just help me relax sometimes with how funny our conversations always seem to turn out to be. Anyways, that's about it for my night. Talked to Adam on the phone earlier for about an hour about all this random stuff. He should be feeling better this weekend and he owes me a date to La Ha, so that might happen after The Red Dawn's practice since I'll be right down the road from La Ha & where Adam lives. Nice way to work out things. Didn't talk to Jason today, but I'm okay with that. Just hope things are working out for him. I think I'll still come by every once and a while to hang out with his family because I really like them. Every time I breathe in the left side of my ribs hurt right about where my speen is. Sometimes that happens and I think I might have something wrong with me but I would never know it. Tomorrow I need to go order my contacts since this prescription seems to be working pretty well, and I also need to get copies of the Dakota and XTerra keys made so I won't have to borrow my parents all the time. That would make me pretty happy. That's pretty much my plans for the next day. I didn't get to see Tom tonight because he flaked out, and I guess he has his reasons. I guess he thinks I'm in love with him and I want to have sex with him and all this stuff that maybe I joked around about. But I'd really just like to lay next to him and hang out as good friends. That's how he needs to remember me, and that's how I'd like our relationship to be. I'm sure in a different time and a different place a love relationship might have happened and even worked, but not here and not now. Get over it. It's all good. Life is about to get really hectic and a boyfriend is definitely not my top priority. Those are my thoughts in one huge ass paragraph. One more tidbit to end the entry:

GlassRiderH2O (2:42:56 AM): call me tomorrow night

The first time he's asked me to call in almost a year. I will surely not forget.

♥ Rach